Early mornings and late nights there is a terrifying silence as all I hear are sound machines carrying through the hall from the babies rooms to my heart beating fast as I lay in what once was our bed all alone. Surrounded by pictures of us together and our life that was suppose to be forever.
Read MoreSometimes in grief, your heart remembers things your mind doesn’t. Every time I have looked at August 15th on the calendar my heart told me something was missing. This morning, I woke up and remembered 6 years ago Patrick asked me to be his girlfriend.
Read MoreToday would have been our 5 year anniversary, I had no idea when we talked about forever together that it would only mean 4 earthly years.
Read More*I thought the most perfect way to share our love and engagement story would be for you to hear it from my beloved Patrick who wrote every word of this and gave it to me as a love note years ago. So here it is from him, hope you enjoy his cute commentary.
Read More9 months you have been gone, the time it takes to grow a life. We would have been expecting number 4 by now and we would have been talking names.
Read MoreOur baby turns one today (June 22) and as we celebrate his birth it was incredible to look back and see how the Lord carried us through that difficultly of getting him here healthy and how we had no idea what was around the corner for us.
Read More“I am a widow like you” said the voice of a sweet lady right after hearing my husband went to be the Lord. “Widow, I can’t believe I am a widow” I thought to myself.
Read MoreAs I have been walking through the immense loss of my beloved husband, I am reminded of these truths to embrace during any season of suffering that will help align our perspective.
Read More“Here are his belongings,”the gentleman said and handed me a bag. I walked into the hospital with a husband that day and walked out a widow with just a bag of his belongings.
Read MoreIt has been almost 6 months since my husband was ushered into heaven, sometimes it feels like it has been years. The change in the seasons to Spring delivers a different load of grief, memories, and pain.
Read MoreThere I sat, in the very place it happened. The room where my husband was ushered into eternity.
Read MoreThe other night as I was praying I was asking the Lord to remind me of His goodness and show me how to live out life and this season of grief with gratitude.
Read MoreIts a New Year. Fresh, nothing set in stone, unpredictable and unmarked. Another journey with just being able to see a single step in front of us, not the whole path ahead.
Read MoreThis Christmas is going to be one I remember forever. Its a bittersweet one. I won’t be cuddled up next to my man looking at our tree, talking about what ministries and families we are going to give to for Christmas.
Read MoreI am caught between two worlds. The earthly and the eternal. Oh how my heart longs for heaven. This world is filled with too much sorrow, pain and hardship.
Read MoreMonday September 28th, a day like many days in our family, filled with the craziness of having three boys under the age of three, work and home life , and trying to do it unto the Lord.
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